This isn’t something I ever thought I would share because it’s something I’ve pushed to the back of my mind; I never looked at it for what it truly was: sexual assault.
I was sexually assaulted on my school bus when I was 12 or 13 and never told anyone because I didn’t really know it WAS sexual assault. I just wanted to forget about it because I felt disgusting and violated. Society taught me and most other girls to brush it off because guys are just gross and uncontrollable, which is deplorable. Saying guys can’t control themselves is not only a repulsive excuse, but a form of encouragement. If boys are always raised to think they can’t control their urges, harassment and assault will never stop. What’s even more deplorable is victim-blaming. I promise you I did nothing on that school bus that screamed: “come sit with me and grope me”. Stop assuming victims are always lying, stop saying it’s just how guys are, and stop saying a victim is asking for it! One simply cannot ask to be molested or raped, as the definitions of both words include non-consensual actions!
A guy thought it was okay to grab me wherever he wanted and there were zero consequences for him. It shouldn’t have taken me so long to realize I had actually been assaulted and that I should’ve and could’ve done something about it. I just got off the bus, ran to my house in tears and washed my hands over and over again like that would make it all go away.
I cannot begin to imagine how many times this has happened to others and it is not okay. Guys should not think they can touch girls wherever the want, whenever they want and girls should not be told that “boys will be boys”. We definitely shouldn’t think we need to brush assault off and forget about it. The more we ignore the assault and pretend it didn’t happen, the more alone we feel. As we know from the horrifying statistics, survivors/victims of sexual assault are NOT alone.
We often think of sexual assault as rape and tend to downplay anything that is more mild. In reality, groping is considered assault. Unwanted touching is UNWANTED. What the hell gives anyone the audacity to touch anyone wherever they want?! I also can’t fathom making excuses for assault or saying it’s a victim’s fault. It is NEVER on the victim! They spend enough time reliving the events and blaming themselves because it’s impossible to understand why somebody would violate them, so why would anyone add to that?
I regret never speaking to anyone about what happened to me. I was fortunate enough to not have been severely traumatized like many are, but the boy should’ve been reprimanded. I hate to think that I’m responsible for a guy growing up thinking it’s okay to do whatever he wants to girls. I wish I’d known to stand up for myself at the time. I wish I’d known that I shouldn’t have felt so disgusting, that what he did was wrong. I want to be open about my negatives along with my positives because they both make us who we are; we learn from everything in our pasts. I want to help others see that they’re not alone and spread awareness to all. Boys should not be raised to think they can do what they want with no responsibility for their actions and girls should not be prepared for “inevitable assault” or ashamed of things that are wrongly done to them.
I am dedicating this blog post to hair growth and restoration, my hair history, everything I’ve heard of and tried, and what I’ve found to be the most beneficial and effective.
I AM NOT AN EXPERT BY ANY MEANS
MY HAIR STORY
I was a little blondie when I was young and I loved it. Unfortunately, when I was in 2nd and 3rd grade, my hair darkened to a mousy, dishwater blonde that I thought was hideouson me. I have no idea what made me think blondes ruled the universe, but I did. So when I was about 12, my mom, probably worn down from my constant badgering, let me get highlights. Did this appease me? Hell no. It created a monster; “I want to go lighter, I want to go blonder”, I said until November of 2017.
I was 12 nearly 8 years ago, and in the past 8 years, 12 year olds have burst from the frumpy caccoons of my 12 year old days. I bet the pre-teens of 2017 will make the most incredible MUAs and hair stylists society has ever seen, as they’re already so talented and knowledgeable! I, on the other hand-very other hand, thought nothing about a “hair routine” and definitely nothing about a “hair care routine”.
I have, and have always had, naturally straight hair, yet I straightened the crap out of it. Especially my bangs-they needed 2 straightener rounds per every half straightener round on the rest of my hair. I mean, the crispier the hair, the easier to keep in place, right?
I’d say my best move of all was straightening my hair while it was wet. Oh yes, I did that, and I did it with a dirt-cheap flat iron.
Meet my 2011 hair. And my braces. Most importantly, my hair:
Thankfully, my hair stylist is my cousin, so she was really able to knock some sense into me. She provided me with Redken shampoo and conditioner, a Redken argon oil, and a USmooth flat iron. That being said, I didn’t truly start reviving my hair until early 2015. The horrid crispy hair was grown out and less crispy by this time, but I needed to show my hair some TLC if I wanted it to grow long, healthy, and strong.
With 2015 came an obsession with long hair-like, to-the-waist-long. So I got some clip-in extensions and focused on growing my actual hair.So, here are all the tips, hacks, and strategies I’ve heard, read about, and tried for myself in the past 2 years.
One of the first things I did was cut back on washing my hair. Everyone will tell you this tip, and for good reason. I personally feel that this tip is the most important and most ignored one. As you’ve probably heard a million-and-a-half times, washing your hair daily is horrible for it. Contrary to what some say, you’re not disgusting if your hair isn’t squeaky-clean on a daily basis.
Washing your hair strips it of its natural oils, which leads to a dry scalp and dry hair. Dry hair means more breakage, more split ends, and more fragility. A dry scalp leads to dandruff, itching, irritation, and overcompensation-more oil production than necessary. With this, constant washing leads to constant product application and heat styling. While you may wash your hair to remove product buildup, you’re ultimately applying way more product by washing, drying, and styling it so often.
Frequent washing also causes color to fade and shine to dull. If your hair is colored and/or toned, your hair stylist will most likely tell you to avoid washes if you want the color, especially the toner, to last. The dullness relates back to the oils: stripping your hair of its oils will strip away its natural shine. There is a difference between shine and grease.
You are also wasting money, water, product, and time by washing your hair daily. None of these points really require further elaboration, so I’ll move on to styling. Styling freshly washed hair can be a nightmare. Slick, untexturuzed hair is not the most cooperative hair; it slips from hair ties and pins, it does not hold in a braid, and it doesn’t always hold the most volume. I prefer working with “dirty” hair over ripping at my hair with a teasing comb or spraying it into place with stiff, alcohol-laden hairsprays.
Oil: I am fortunate enough to not produce a lot of oil; my skin and hair do not get oily quickly at all, so cutting back on washing was not difficult for me. Truly, the less you wash your hair, the more trained it becomes, which leads to less grease over time. While transitioning, invest in some nice dry shampoo and try braided styles to hide oil.
I currently wash my hair 1-2 times a week-3 at the most-and I have no shame. I’m not nasty, I’m just promoting healthy hair.
MY MAJOR WASHING TIPS:
Stop lathering your hair from roots to ends with shampoo. Only apply a small amount to your scalp and roots and massage gently. The ends of your hair are the most fragile and the least oily, so they do not need a deep cleanse. You’ll be saving a lot of product as well.
Conditioner is practically the opposite, especially if you have very oily hair. I do not have oily hair, so I apply conditioner from roots to ends, focusing mostly on the ends, and let it sit until the end of my shower. For oily hair, I’d suggest focusing most of the product on the ends of the hair and working up gradually, applying the least amount to your roots.
I also suggest rinsing hair with cooler water, as high temperatures are damaging and drying.
Wash your hair no more than 4 times a week.
The obvious tip for drying your hair is to lay off the blow dryer. Blow dryers are the most damaging tool you can use on your hair. If you’re in a major hurry and need the blow dryer, it is suggested to never use the hottest setting. Use cool air if you can and avoid using a hair brush that will heat up from the dryer and damage your hair more. The suggested technique is to hold the nozzle at a downward angle(to prevent frizz), move the dryer from side to side over the hair, and hold the dryer a decent distance away from your head.
For a while, I would sit in front of my electric fireplace at home to dry my hair, which seemed less damaging than blow drying, but it was still drying out and cooking my hair.
The ideal option is letting your hair air dry after your showers, preferably not when you sleep. Hair is most fragile when it’s wet and some sheet material can cause breakage and static. You also toss and turn, which is not great for delicate wet hair.
Stop wringing your wet hair out with all your might. You want to be super gentle with wet hair; pat it dry with a towel. I’ve even been told a tshirt is better.
Stop twisting freshly washed hair into a towel. Again, it’s very damaging.
Don’t pull wet hair back into ponytails or tight buns.
Do not use a hairbrush on wet hair!! Only use a wide-tooth comb or wet brush.
I’m not a snob when it comes to durgsgore products, but some cheaper hair products will do more damage than good to your hair. Some drugstore shampoos containing lathering ingrediants and sulfates strip hair of color and oils. They will often dry hair out and cause severe damage. They also often leave a gross, waxy feeling to the hair that I despise. I feel like any time I use Pantene, Suave, or Treseme, my hair either feels like hay or like I just coated it in wax.
PRODUCTS TO AVOID
Alcohol: often found in hairspray. It dries the crap out of your hair. It often sucks all the moisture right out.
Silicone: while it may give hair the appearance of smoothness, that’s all it is- the appearance. It actually coats hair and seals off folicles from absorbing moisture and nourishment.
Parabens: the real evil. They are inherently toxic to some human cells and can be absorbed through the skin.
Salt: the sad truth is that salt sprays are insanely drying to your hair. I learned this one myself two summers ago and have avoided them ever since.
Heat proctectant(?): This is controversial, but I am not the most supportive of heat protectant. I owned one heat protectant(44 Chi Iron Gaurd Protection Spray) and I noticed even more damage when using it; I felt that it made my hair feel very tacky, damp, and heavily-coated. When I straightened my hair after applying this, it would sizzle and steam like nobody’s business and still feel waxy afterwards. In fact, it felt more dry and damaged afterwards. I’ve read that applying heat protectant spray and/or oil to the hair before heat styling is actually prepping the hair to get cooked and fried. I do not hear style my hair, therefore I do not use heat protectant, so it’s something to look into for yourself. I feel like everyone says to use it, so what do I know?
My suggestion is to get all products from professionals. I use the following:
Redken Diamond Oil Shampoo
Redken Diamond Oil Conditioner
Redken Diamond Oil argon oil
Dare I say it…cocoanut oil.
I believed it, fell for it, did it. I’d lather my head in cocoanut oil once a week and let it sit in my hair overnight. When I washed it out, my hair would feel nice, smooth and thick, but that was it. I noticed no long term benefits whatsoever. None. It did not truly repair damage, it didn’t make my hair grow magically, nor did it thicken my hair. I’ve been told by some stylists that it works, some say it works only for some people, and a stylist with enough skill, experience, and knowledge to charge $50 for a hair cut informed me that it’s mostly a myth. He told me it doesn’t really absorb into the follicle enough to truly make a difference; it’s only temporary since it sits on the follicle. It does make your hair feel and look smooth, thick, and shiny but the effect is gone after a wash. For hair repair, he suggests mixing a bit of moroccan oil with your conditioner and letting it sit in your hair for 5 minutes before washing.
I think I’ll test the Moroccan oil treatment throughout one month and then the cocoanut oil treatments throughout the next to give both a fair opportunity.
This one is kind of just annoying. It seems a bit overboard, but It’s also easily forgotten. In order for your hair to be healthy, you need to be healthy. Eating a balanced diet promotes a healthy body, healthy enzymes, healthy cells and so on which promotes…you guessed it: healthy hair! As equally annoying is hydration. To ensure that your locks stay nourished and lustrous, you need to be sure you’re hydrated enough. If your body is a desert, your hair is, too. It is suggested that we all drink 64oz. of water a day, which I successfully do maybe twice a month if I’m playing myself up.
VITAMINS AND NUTRIENTS
Vitamin A: important for all cell growth in the body. Also helps produce oily substance that keeps hair moisturized.
B vitamins: Biotin and B-12 are the best known vitamins for hair. With that, B vitamins help produce red blood cells which carry oxygen and nutrients throughout the body.
Vitamin C: helps produce collagen, which is an important part of hair structure. Vitamin C also helps the body absorb iron.
Vitamin D: known to play a role in hair production.
Vitamin E: antioxidant that reduces oxidant stress and helps hair growth.
Iron: carries red blood cells throughout the body. Iron deficiency is a leading cause of hair loss.
Zinc: plays important role in hair growth and repair, along with maintung oil gland function.
Protein: all that needs to be said is that hair is made almost entirely of protein.
This does not mean you should run out and purchase supplements containing all these vitamins and nutrients; food is the best source of all. However, if you are deficient already, supplements would have been a good ideayesterday.
If you are vegan or vegetarian like myself, supplements are a great idea. Vegans and vegetarians can often miss out on protein, iron, zinc, vitamin A, vitamin B, and vitamin D.
This category includes both heat tools and regular styling, as they can both be damaging to your hair. I think we all know very well what heat does to the hair, so it’s not very necessary for me to say that nobody should blow dry and curl/straighten their hair with heat anywhere near the amount we do. It’s ideal to reduce your heat styling to only once or twice a week and to keep the heat below 375 degrees.
The less obvious damage comes from styles such as:
Tight ponytails every day: These are damaging because hair ties can grip too tightly and cause fraying to your hair when it’s thrown up into thia style too often. If you can’t resist a tight bun or pony all the time, opt for a fabric hair tie like a scrunchie.
Tight braids: Yikes. Pulling hair into tight braids can lead to splitting, breaking, folicile damage, and hair loss. The tugging of the braid can pull hair from the root or just cause intense stress that leads to hair loss. I am a braid lover, however, I stick to very loose, pulled-out braids.
Wet styles: Like the others, this can cause breakage, split ends and hair loss. If dry ponytails can be damaging, imagine what wet ones do since we know wet hair is much more fragile than dry hair.
Sleeping with a bun or ponytail: Again, these are damaging regularly, so they’re much worse when you’re rolling around at night, causing friction and pulling at your roots. It’s best to sleep with your hair down at night.
So there you have it. That’s all my non-expert advice on hair.
I’m beyond tired of seeing people tweet things with the intention of making others feel guilty or spoiled for having things they themselves do not have. I constantly see hateful tweets about people whose parents have money, people who are naturally attractive, people whose parents are not divorced, people that get to go on vacation often, etc. I totally understand jealousy and agitation towards people whom of which I think live easier lives than I do, however, I have no tolerance or respect for people when they stoop low enough to make others feel guilt for things that are out of their control. I find it very similar to the concept of me constantly tweeting things like: “you don’t know how lucky you are to have full sight”, which I would never do. For the most part, I’m happy for others that don’t face the same hardships I do; people have enough to deal with as it is without us wishing worse lives upon them.
I feel a spike of anger every time I see a tweet like this even if I sometimes feel similarly to the people tweeting. It’s important to remember that nobody knows everything that goes on in the lives of others. We might see how “wonderful” other’s lives are through social media, which make sense because people don’t post as often about the negatives in their lives. When using common sense, one can conclude that no one lives a perfect life and no one documents every good and bad thing that happens to them for the public to observe. So why tweet hatefully about people whose lives about which we’re ignorant?
Frankly, it infuriates mewhen anyone says “you don’t know how lucky you are…” or “I wish I had your problems”. Those are jealous and condescending statements that seem to be used here recently as forms of indirectly attacking people on social media. Some of these statemeets end up with thousands of retweets, which undoubtedly leads to people feeling attacked and guilty. I do not support diminishing anyone’s problems, especially to focus on your own like they’re more significant. It’s pathetic and deplorable in my opinion. I recently saw a tweet saying people don’t know how lucky they are to have married parents. On the contrary, I think I’m very fortunate to have married parents. I think about it often. Now, on the other hand, think of people whose parents are only staying together because they think it’s best for the child yet are constantly fighting in front of their child. In my opinion, it’s not always best for a child to have married parents if those parents are miserable together and causing tension in the household. Someone could have married parents that are abusive, hostile, into drugs and other criminal activities, or worse. I’m not naive; I know divorces are devastating. I can’t speak from experience on this matter, but I know having divorced parents can be both good and bad. What I can speak about is that no one holds the right to be the judge over everyone and say who is lucky and who isn’t. Personally, it feels Ike I’m almost being attacked out of nowhere by someone I don’t know(and the thousands that have retweeted these tweets) because I have married parents, and I have absolutely nothing to say to defend myself. I also feel uncomfortable beecause I didn’t know I needed to defend myself because my parents aren’t divorced. As I said, I’m incredibly grateful that my parents are still together and being told I’m unappreciative by someone that doesn’t know me at all puts me on the defensive, as I’m sure it does to many others. If you’re trying to spread awareness about what divorce can do to people, you’ll gain a lot more support by not bringing others down, by not causing people to go on the defensive.
People also seem to hold a lot of resentment towards people whose parents have money. To start, I’d like to say that kids have zero control over how much money their families have earned. Yes, it is aggravating when someone just inherits money and comes off spoiled and selfish because of it, but it’s a gross generalization to assume all wealthy peopleare this way. Some people come from very little and work their asses off to get where they are only to receive hatred, only to have their children receive hatred for having money. Some people have legal settlements that came from horrible events like murder, negligence, reckless endangerment, etc. Some people simply win the lottery, others receive money when their loved ones die, others don’t get to spend time with their parents because they’re so focused on earning money. I see the most tweets about how nice it must be to get money from your parents, to get enough money to not have to work, to go on vacations all the time. I’ll admit that I’ve been jealous of the lavish vacations people take, the nice clothing people wear, the amount of shopping people do, and so on. However, I prefer to not be a horribly negative person , so I don’t blame these people or tell them they’re so lucky and unappreciative. I don’t respect people that try to make others feel bad by acting like their lives are so much worse. Everyone faces hardships!!! Don’t act superior and condescending by telling another person they don’t know how good they have it.
Life includes ups and downs for everyone. Someone could be wealthy and beautiful but bipolar. Someone could have a lot of money from a lawsuit but also be permanently disabled. Some people might travel the world and also be rape survivors. Some people are raised by wealthy parents and very lonely because jealousy keeps friends away. Who the hell has the audacity to think they are the judge of anyone, who gets to say whose lives are better than others?!
There are privileged, ungrateful people in this world. There are also rapists, murderers, liars, theifs, and narcissists. Where would we be if we always assumed the worst from everyone? How impractical a notion is that? Instead of assuming we know things about others, judging them from afar, and making them feel attacked by thoughtless generalizations, why don’t we support others and fight to stop spreading hate? It saddens me to see people losing empathy more and more; it seems as if very few people today care to understand others. Compassion should be felt towards more than ourselves and wealth. I feel that it’s so much more important and beneficial to all if we focus less on how “amazing” others seem to have it and focus more on living happy lives ourselves. Happiness does not often include assumptions and envy.
I’ve finally tried out Colourpop! I received 7 items, so I wanted to share my thoughts and feelings. I purchased the Blow Me Away eyeshadow palette and Faded Lippie Stix from the new Nectar line, the Just Peachy lip bundle, Weenie supershock shadow, London Fog Ultra Satin Lip, and Frick n Frack Ultra Satin Lip.
Blow Me Away Eyeshadow Palette
This palette contains 4 pressed powder shadows: 3 mattes and 1 shimmer.
Take a Break: peachy gold shimmer
Centerfold: vibrant coral matte
Issues: peach matte
Slim Fit: hot red/coral matte
These shadows apply and blend wonderfully, they are very vibrant and pigmented, and they don’t have a ton of fallout. The shimmer shade is less pigmented and less impressive than the three mattes, but it is still beautiful.
Faded: This lipstick is also part of the Nectar Collection. It’s a beautiful, glossy, rosy coral that applies so incredibly easily. I absolutely love this product.
Weenie: This supershock shadow is a metallic ros gold shade created by Kathleen Lights. It’s a cross between a powder and cream that’s best applied with the fingers. When swatched on the back of the hand, the shade is so pigmented, however, it’s less noticeable on the eyelid. It could be my skin tone or that I need to apply a shadow enhancer or a better base shade; I need to play around with it more. Nevertheless, it’s a beautiful shadow with a great formulation.
London Fog Ultra Satin Lip: I rciv this a a sample. This liquid lipis a vibrant pinky red. It’s very comfortable on the lips and a gorgeous shade that’s perfect for making a statement in spring and summer.
Frick N’ Frack Ultra Satin Lip: I received this as a sample as well. Online, it is called a rosy terracotta, but mine looks nothing like the left photo in my tube or on my lips. It’s more of a dark rosy purple, which is disappointing. However, it is very comfortable on the lips.
Just Peachy Lip Bundle
Instigator: muted peach ultra matte
Screenshot: deepened peach ultra satin
Speed Dial: rich peach ultra matte
Screenshot is my favorite due to its very neutral shade and comfortability. It’s followed closely by Speed Dial. Instigator is my least favorite due to its bright, less natural shade, but I do still like it.
As a whole, I’m a fan of this brand so far. I did receive the Faded lipstick when I ordered the lip pencil, but that’s my only other complaint along with the slight disappointment in Take a Break and Frick n’ Frack. I’m a huge fan of the prices on all the products as they’re all around $5 each. I’m excited to try out more products.
Here’s a personal and honest post about body image, how I feel about it in general, and how I feel about my own.
I’ve pretty much diagnosed myself with body dysmorphia even though I know it requires a medical diagnosis. Body dysmorphia is a mental illness that causes you to see your flaws-or perceived flaws, as so much more than they truly are. You obsess over them and hate yourself for things that aren’t really there. I think most teenagers experience a touch of body dysmorphia many, many times. I went through puberty pretty early on, so I think I’ve dealt with issues far beyond self consciousness since I was about 13 years old. I was 112-114 pounds until I was 15 or 16 and I thought I looked hideous. I thought I was fat, ugly, waistless, and flabby. I thought my thighs and arms were too big and man, did I despise my “love handles”. It’s utterly hilarious to me now because I almost looked too thin at times. I was doing P90x and didn’t have an ounce of fat on my body.
Junior year of high school, I got up to 140 pounds. Keep in mind that I’m only a little over 5 feet tall, so that was a nightmare for me. I was somehow going through a phase where I didn’t have to step on a scale every day, where I didn’t have to inspect my body in a mirror. When that phase ended, it ended hard. I stopped eating red meat(which I loved), I stopped eating French fries(which I loved more than anything), I was taking appetite suppressants, and I started spending $50 on meal replacement shakes. In September of 2015, I stopped eating meat altogether. Once I started the shakes I was probably getting 1,000 calories or less a day, which is not healthy. However, I was monitoring my vitamins and nutrients to make sure I wasn’t becoming malnourished. I didn’t do it the healthiest way possible, but I lost 15 pounds.
Weight and physical appearance control and consume my life on and off, as I believe they do to most girls. I can’t speak for guys, but I’m certain they’re not immune to self loathing and societal pressures either. My weight has been a priority over my health, my happiness, my diet, etc. I was constantly worried about my thighs, my sides, my waist, my arms, my chins, and my lack of jaw. I would cry over how I looked often, I verbally abused myself in my mind and I’d look at myself and think: “Hideous. Fatass. Ugly. Gross. Chubby. Lard ass.” If I wasn’t focused on hating my body, it was my lips. I’d look at them, then look at other girl’s lips and despise mine. I was constantly comparing the things I hated about myself to other girls and it was ruining me. I’d try to convince myself I preferred having feminine curves over a high metabolism and never having to worry about my weight, but it was bullshit. I looked at super thin girls and wanted nothing more than to look like them. I wanted to be a double zero, have a large thigh gap, have super slender arms and legs, and never wear anything but a small or extra small. If I’m being honest, I still sometimes think I’d rather look anorexic than what I look like. I know it’sunhealthy, but I can’t force myself to love my appearance. I’m still so jealous of naturally thin girls and I wish I wasn’t, but I’d be lying if I said I never felt down about myself; I’m human just like everyone else.
It would be hypocritical and niave of me to say everyone should just love what they look like and stop comparing themselves to others. I know it’s not that simple or easy; I honestly don’t know how to take that advice myself. I wanted to share how I’ve felt and still often feel because I know it’s horrible and wrong and I know so many others go through such similar issues. Everyone feels this way at times no matter what they look like. Society has truly given us all expectations we shouldn’t have about ourselves and others. We see other girls and how “beautiful” or “sexy” they are, how much others praise them, and how attractive certain characteristics or features are said to be. I honestly don’t think there’s a way to completely ignore or reverse the influence society and other people have on us. We know what people find attractive and we know they look at us all to see if we have it or not. It causes such self conciousness and self hatred, such pressure. I admit I’m guilty, but I also admit that it’s horribly wrong. I wish with everything in me that I could just stop caring so much and that I could get over my flaws, that I could stop comparing myself to others.
While I refuse to pretend I can just flip a switch, I am an advocate of working to love yourself more. If you live a fairly healthy life and are happy with yourself, that is truly all you need. Personally, I’ve had to make lifestyle changes: I eat better now, I exercise, I look for positives in the mirror instead of only negatives, and I don’t expect perfection. Do things that make you happy and make you love yourself. In order to get to a place where you can love yourself, you have to be in a healthy state of mind first. For me, that meant getting out of bed and having fun instead of stalking girls on Instagram, finding ways to improve on my body without hating the exercise, and feeling positive about life in general. We need to stop expecting perfection from ourselves and others. Instead of looking at a person and immediately looking for the negatives in them, we should look for positivity and work to make others feel more positively about themselves. We judge ourselves enough as it is; we compare ourselves to all the beautiful people in the modeling industry, television, the beauty industry, magazines, movies, and so on. We don’t need to feel like everyone that looks at us is also comparing us. I think helping others feel better about themselves leads to feeling better about yourself as well.
As I’ve said, I don’t think there is any perfect fix for our skewed body image issues, but I do think we can all work to improve. Self love is such an important concept that I don’t think many of us focus on enough. YOU are beautiful as YOU are. You don’t need to be pretty like her or muscular like him, you just need to be you and they just need to be them.
I’ve tried my fair share of products and, like everyone, I’ve loved some and I’ve hated some. I’m going to share the products I’ve disliked, hated, been unimpressed by and been totally disappointed in.
Lush Ultrablend Facial Cleanser
I’m starting off with the absolute worst product I’ve ever used on my face. I have super sensitive skin, so I decided to try a sample of this because it’s listed as “ultra-gentle”. I foun out the hard way that it is anything but gentle for my skin. I was using this to remove my makeup and after 3 days, my eyelids were so dry and irritated that I wanted to cry. My eyes are literally watering right now at the thought of how horrible this stuff was for me. I used it 2 months ago and I don’t think my lids are back to normal yet.
Clean and Clear Dual Action Moisturizer
So, I don’t hate this product and I’m sure it’s great for people with less dry skin types, but it feels like absolutely nothing on my face. I have the driest of dry skin, so I like to feel like my face is drinking in moisture and nourishment from a moisturizer, which doesn’t seem like too much to ask. When I use this, it truly feels like nothing. My face is still stiff and dry after using, so I consider it a disappointment.
Cetaphil Daily Cleanser
Blah. I thought this was supposed to be a fabulous choice for sensitive skin, and although it did not burn my face or cause severe irritation, it did seem to coat my face and leave a weird lotion-like residue. I felt it also broke me out in small bumps and blemishes. With that, it seemed like it did a poor job of actually cleaning my skin; it feels more like a cheap hand soap mixed with lotion.
IPKN Moist and Firm BB Cream
The reason this product is on my disappointments list is because of the smell. The smell bothers me so much that I can’t stand to use this product. It’s $31, so they should really make the scent bearable for customers that are willing to spend that ,uvh.
Bare Minerals Complexion Rescue Tinted Moisturizer
Okay, this stuff broke me out like no product ever has before. I had blemishes all over my freaking face, so I returned it within days.
DavinesOi All in One Milk
This spray did make my hair feel very smooth while wet and helped comb through tangles, however, I felt that it coated my hair a lot, leaving it feeling grossly thick and greasy when it dried. Greasy hair is a total no-no for me because I have the least greasy hair.
Benefit Cosemtics Hello Flawless Foundation
It was flat out stupid for me to try this foundation in the first place because I hate liquid foundation. I have super dry sensitive skin, so applying a liquid to coat my entire face just feels horrible to me. I felt like my shade match somehow made me look even more yellow than I already am, so I hated that as well. It was a light to medium coverage, but that’s still a bit much for me. I am not a fan of coating my entire face in a second skin. I felt that it was too mattifying as well, which contributed to making my face look unreal.
Maybelline Facestudio Master Contour Yikes. This was one of the worst palettes I’ve tried. The powders were all so rough and lacking in pigment. I could barely get them to show up in swatches, let alone on my face. I gave it a good try because the shades are really nice, but it just didn’t work for me at all.
Anastasia Beverly Hills Ultimate Glow Kit
Okay, this was my fault. I totally should have realized this was very full of glitter before I ordered it, but I did not. The shades were absolutely beautiful and work for so many skin tones, but they were all such glitter bombs. I’m not a fan of super metallic, blinding, glitter-packed highlights, so this was not for me.
Milani Rose Powder Blush
Okay, I only have one negative with this product and it’s so bad that it puts this blush on the list. The smell. I love the shade and application, but the scent makes me gag. I can’t even use the product. I tried leaving it open for days and days but the horrid smell has not disapated.
Urban Decay Naked Palettes
I know, I’m a minority on this one. These palettes just disappointed me. They’re very pigmented and long-wearing and the shades are beautiful, but the shadows are not creamy or buttery at all. I have the Naked 2, 3, and smokey, so I feel like I have a decent idea of the quality of these shadows. I’m simply not that impressed by them; the packaging irritates me to no end, the shadows are rough and crumbly, the palettes all have intense fall-out, and I reach for them the least out of all my eyeshadow palettes.
Mac Retro Matte Liquid Lipstick
Wow. Horrible. This is the worst liquid lipstick I’ve ever tried. It takes forever to dry down and when it finally does, it’s sticky as can be, transferable, crumbly, and prone to bleeding/fading. I ordered the shade So Me and it’s way darker and more plum in person.
Wet n Wild Megalast Liquid Catsuit Matte Lipstick
I bought Peach Nudist and the shade is decent but not as pretty as I’d hoped, but my real issue was with how it dried down. I had high hopes, but this formula is so sticky! I can’t stand the feeling even when I have something moisturizing underneath. The applicator also kind of sucks.
e.l.f Makeup Mist and Set
There is no major problem with this spray that just makes me hate it. It simply does very little for my makeup. I don’t think it helps it last longer or look any different.
So there you have it. Hopefully this helps someone when they’re deciding what products to buy and avoid.
I’m currently shaking out of anger. It’s well known that I’m a “flaming liberal” as some so respectfully call me, so you can imagine where I’m going with this. If you are triggered by us “flaming liberal” types and if you cannot read opposing thoughts without closing off your rationality and respectfulness, I ask you, politely, to move on.
As we know, the House of Representatives has passed the American Health Care Act and we’re now awaiting the Senate’s approval or disapproval. I’m absolutely sick over this entire thing. First, I’ll admit that the Affordable Care Act was not perfect. Honestly, what can be perfect today? I saw people complaining and moaning about how their insurance was going up and it was less spectacular than it used to be, and to that I thought: good to know you’re more concerned about yourself, that you’re worked up about slightly less coverage for you in order for others to have any coverage at all. Call me crazy, but I’d rather have to pay a little more if that means everyone gets some kind of healthcare. I guess it’s too much to ask that we care more about people than money. I think people easily forgot that their insurance is most likely still better than what it is for those receiving government healthcare.
I could go on endlessly about every infuriating aspect of this callous bill, but I’d like to move on to something that everyone can care about since that’s the only time some people will be angered: when it actually seems unfair to them. So, I present to you the pre-existing conditions part of Trump’s bill.
Ive read multiple different articles and seen a copious amount of pictures and lists and so on, and what I’ve gathered is that the AHCA still “favors” the requirement set by the ACA regarding pre-existing conditions: insurers cannot deny benefits to those with pre-existing conditions. However, with the AHCA, insurers sure can drive up the prices and decrease the amount of coverage for those of us unfortunate enough to have contracted or been born with a disease/disorder. With that, states will be allowed waivers that will then allow insurers to sell plans that exclude benefits to those with pre-existing conditions.
In a nutshell, the Trump”care” act does not guarantee affordable care or any health insurance at all to those of us with certain diseases, disorders, or conditions. No matter your political affiliation, you’re susceptible to ailments. Thus, everyone is impacted by this.
List of pre-existing conditions that could cause premium spikes or may not be covered:
Sickle Cell Anemia
And the list goes on. In case you think I’m blowing smoke uo your ass, here are links to other lists and more information:
Here is a link to Trump’s actual site explaining and reiterating over and over that Republicans aren’t against supporting those with medical conditions. The link also includes that states will have the ability to seek waivers allowing insurers to deny benefitsand raise premiums. The writers of the page express again that Republicans don’t wish to eliminate benefits to those with conditions, they merely explain why companies began denying and up-charging in the first place. It’s up to you to decide whether or not this explaination is excusing or justifying the unfairness.
Since I’ve hilariously been called “sexist against men”, let’s start off with women. To be charged extra or denied coverage due to menstral irregularities and pregnancy is simply to be punished for being a female. Would you like to know some causes of irregularities in periods? Adolescence, exercise, diet, stress, family history, medications, etc. Also, PREGNANCY?! Punishment for procreating, premarital sex, or maybe just a means to solve overpopulation? Yeah, those statements might seem ridiculous, but I promise you they’re on par with the ridiculousness of insurers considering pregnancy. Also, sorry gentlemen, but this matters for you as well if you’re going to be marrying a female and/or having a child with one. And you better hope that you have a boy if you do have a child because that girl would possibly have menstral irregularities some day!
The act seems punitive to our LGBT community as well. Like they need more inequalities. Correct me if I’m wrong, but transsexuality is in no way as expensive a “condition” as something like cancer. To me, this is not a pre-existing medical condition! Sex reassignment could be considered if a person is receiving procedures and medications, but it, along with transsexuality, seem to be included simply to allow for discrimination. With this, AIDS is so often linked to homosexuality, so it’s no surprise that it’s included on the lists.
Mental illness. No surprise there either, as these people are so often viewed as “weak-minded”. Depression and anxiety are not widely understood as the life-altering disorders that they are but as made-up conditions for people who can’t “deal with reality”, “shake off sadness”, “get over nervousness”, or “deal like everyone else”. Also, the mindset of “why should insurers have to help pay for the “psychos” with bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, psychotic disorders, and more?” runs rampant in society. It’s so easy to disregard that mental illnesses often appear in people due to genetics and trauma. So yeah, let’s punish people with horrible healthcare for their conditions that were caused by abuse, rape, endangerment, neglect, and injury!
Cancer, cystic fibrosis, and organ transplants. This one will really rile people up because, unlike mental illnesses, they’re lucid. People can see the damage these diseases are doing to their sufferers, so they’re actually considered real and important like all severe diseases/disorders should be. So how could something as horrible as cancer make insurers turn their noses up? Well, these diseases are expensive, they have higher death rates, andlittle to no cure. So somehow, this makes the money aspect more important than human life. Organ transplants are rare, difficult and extremely costly. Insurers know that someone who needed one in the past could really cost them a lot of money just like cancer patients can.
Obesity, addiction, and diabetes. Again, this is putative. Often, these conditions are viewed as self-caused, so of course they’re going to be considered as burdens in the healthcare world. We love to blame people for their own issues instead of trying to understand them, so it’s easy to justify that people should have to pay more if they can’t stop eating or abusing substances.
Sickle cell anemia and tuberculosis. These are just more examples of structured discrimination as Sickle Cell Anemia is present mostly in non-white people and TB kills mostly Natuve Americans.
To paint a decent picture, I’m going to make this personal and explain how this could negatively affect me and others like me. I am visually impaired and diagnosed with both ADD and Major Depression. To clarify, I will be stating facts, not fishing for sympathy and pity. I am not pitying myself, I am simply pointing out my reality and how it differs from those that do not have the disorders I have.
My visual impairment affects only 25-34,000 US citizens, causes legal blindness, and has no cure or treatment. Yes, that includes glasses and contacts. As you can imagine-kind of, our lives are pretty different than your full-sighted person’s. Our lives are also very different than the lives of fully-blind people because we walk a very misunderstood line between sighted and not. My disease is much more frequently used as joke material than it is understood; it’s not easy to comprehend a disability that is physically undetectable,e. For me, life includes: inability to see computer screens, menus, street signs, physical books, newspapers, important forms and documents, magazines, white boards and smart boards at school, people at a distanc, my own toenails, my weight on a scale, instructions on food, products, etc.; inability to participate in most sports, card games, ping pong, frisbee throwing, bike riding, art, scuba diving, and so on; inability to be a server, pilot, doctor, surgeon, nurse, engineer, clerk, police officer, military solider, firefighter…you get the point. Only you don’t. Because I’m still slapped in the face all the time by yet another thing I’m unable to do. In order to do things that are simple to most, I have to jump hurdles and test different forms of assistance.
Simply figuring out how to makes things even doable-not easy, is a constant struggle. Getting a job often seems impossible because, not only is it difficult to find a job that I could do, it is no secret to me that employers would prefer fully able employees. Truly, it’s hard to even know my rights as a disabled person, so imagine the difficulties I have when they’re violated. Yes, I’ve been bullied brutally. Yes, I feel misunderstood at times and insanely alone other times. Yes, I sometimes feel worthless and less human. I hate depending on everyone. I feel like a burden. I feel like people look down on me, view me as pathetic. Micro-aggressions are very real and I face them daily. My life would be a constant humiliation if I let it be and finally, yes, my disability was a major contributor to my depression. Do I always experience those things? Of course not, but a lifetime of of those on-and-off feelings and experiences takess it’s toll. It does for everyone with any kind of disorder that makes their life more difficult.
My vision is my cancer, my missing limb, my seemingly fatal condition. An abundance of people, especially those with Trump’s pre-existing conditions , have their own cancer. Their condition has the ability to ruin their lives, whether it is considered significant or not by others. Some might say it’s absolutely ridiculous to compare a vision impairment or a mental illness to cancer, but if you truly attempt to understand, you’ll see that “simple” conditions can lead to major ones and can take your life from you or cause you to take your own.
People who can’t easily get a job are never going to have an equal opportunity to get superb insurance, nor are they going to make enough money to afford a life with no insurance or higher prices! People with fatal diseases cannot work to earn money to pay for their expenses or support their families.
I honestly don’t know where to start on this. The things I hear people say, the things I read online and on social media, and the misconceptions and stigma surrounding mental illnesses are confounding to me and cause me more despondency that I can put into words. I’m absolutely done with the accepting and ignoring approach; if all I do is make one person think, “oh, it’s different than what I thought”, then it’s worth it. For my sanity, I need to feel like I’m doing something, anything at all, to spread awareness and enlighten others. We’re told to hold our tongues because “you can’t change people”, but how can we accomplish anything with that mentality? I don’t wish to change people, my wish is to enlighten people and change how mental illness is viewed by society, not by individuals.
On my way back from class today, I heard two guys discussing a suicide that a news channel was covering. The first guy said, “did you hear about that?!”, and the second guy responded, “yeah, how do you hang yourself when you’re 6″6?!”. That was it. That was all it meant to them. It was simply fascinating, and not fascinating to them that the human brain can get to such a dark, hopeless place. No, there was no thought, no discussion, about what the men actually went through before his death, just how he killed himself. And that’s how it is.
When I was 10, I lost my first relative. To depression. To suicide. My friend said she was sorry and followed by asking how he/she did it. The next day at recess, another friend came up and told me she’d heard what had happened and how my relative had done it, like that was of any importance at all. I was ten years old, in mourning, and had people asking “did your relative really kill himself/herself?”, saying “your relative is going to hell”, and my favorite, “that was so selfish”. They were just kids, but what made them view suicide this way by age 10?
I grew up understanding depression; I had to. I’m named after my uncle that lost his life to depression, I lost a relative to it when I was only 10, and I could go on, but my family’s business is my family’s business. Simply, depression runs in my family like blood.
When I was 12, my visual impairment representative at school nonchalantly told me it was likely I would “get depressed” when I was 16 and all my friends could drive and I couldn’t because of my vision. I grew up knowing that Major Depressive disorder was generic and socialy influenced, so by age 14, I was practically just waiting for it to come. Thanks VI teacher, for the fear and pre-diagnosis.
I wish I could’ve told 14 year old me that it would be a long wait and that when it came, no amount of understanding could’ve prepared me.
Around age 14, I started experiencing Seasonal Affective Disorder(SAD-how ironic). SAD is a form of major depression that is brought on by the diminished amount of sunlight during the winter months. The symptoms are mostly the same as the symptoms of major depression, but SAD typically comes with less hopessness and no suicidal thoughts because those suffering know it will end when spring arrives. This disorder is often referred to as the “winter blues”, which is total bullshit. This disorder is not one to downplay or ignore, as it is depression; it effects your daily life. However, I did downplay it and thought I was just less motivated and less happy because it was cold and ugly outside.
Although I’d been dealing with Seasonal Affective Disorder for 5 years, Major Depression knocked me on my ass this past October. Yes, I have a mood disorder. Yes, I have been diagnosed with Clincal Depression, and I’m not ashamed of it. Nobody should ever feel ashamed, insane, or embarrassed by mental illness. I’m openly talking about it even though it’s “uncomfortable” because I believe it should no longer be an awkward topic.
With so much talk about suicide right now because of 13 Reasons Why, I really wanted to write this and truly explain how depression works and what it does to a person. Clearly, I can speak from personal experience. No, depression is not synonymous with everyone, but it’s frightening how similarly people with depression view things and feel.
I knew the warning signs. I knew what was happening to me, but I didn’t tell myself, I didn’t accept it. I knew there was a reason I had stopped doing the things I loved, why I felt insanely irritable, why I’d stopped caring about everything. It took until late October when I was in a rage/panic over the smallest thing, until I cried to my mom that I truly thought I was going insane, until my mom told me she was making me an appointment that I got it through my head that I was dealing with depression. Not some “winter blues”, not “some sadness”, not stress, but true Clinical Depression.
In my opinion, the warning signs go like this:
Loss of interest in activities once found pleasurable
Anger and irritation- major unexplained irritability
Lack of energy and motivation
Feeling like everything is the end of the world
Feelings of emptiness and hopelessness
Changes in sleep and appetite
To go into more detail, a major sign is losing interest in the things you once loved. I loved yoga, music, playing guitar, being outside, socializing, going out to eat, and just being out and about. In September, I became a different person. I wasn’t too busy with school to still do the things I loved, I just stopped. There was no big moment of change, I just gradually stopped doing everything simply because I had no desire to anymore. I’d even try to do a little bit of yoga and I would just stop because it was a chore to do sometching I loved. I never felt like going out and doing anything, even eating. I lost weight because I had no motivation or desire to get out of bed and get food. The food itself also didn’t sound appealing at all. I no longer sang in the car or danced around to music; I no longer saw goodness in the things around me.
I was totally content to keep the blinds shut on the window, sit in dim light, and watch dark shows. I was addicted to Dexter and Skins. I would get irritated out of nowhere and every little negative thing that happened was like a giant earthquake that added a new fissure to my very fragile shell. When people were completely happy around me, I felt that they were naive, that they simply had no concept of how cruel life could be. I felt ostracized because they saw the good in life while I got to experience all the bad. I was in a fishbowl of negativity. I was an alien with soulless eyes. While others smiled and laughed around me, I was drowning in my own mind. I’d smile and laugh back, but it was only external. My mind and body weren’t really connected.
I’d be up all hours of the night just thinking. When you’re depressed, everything is an overanalysis. I’d wonder why I was being tested, why I was the experiment to see how much one person could handle before breaking completely. I used to hate being alone, but my dorm room quickly felt like a zoo exhibit where everyone watched me deteriorate. I’d feel like I needed to escape and sit in darkness where I’d stare at the floor, a wall, the sky. I could stare wth emotionless eyes for all of eternity. At my worst, I would double over because I didn’t have the strength or energy to sit up. My body, the hole in my chest, the weight of my life was too heavy to support when I was alone, when I had no reason to pretend. I would claw at the ground, desperate to escape my own mind. I did not consider suicide, but I felt that death would be easier than a life like the one I was living. I knew I couldn’t live that way forever. I knew it was depression, but I could never distinguish what was really me and what was the depression, which led to overthinking and stressing, panicking, circling my thoughts into insanity. I would be in the car and imagine getting in a horrible wreck, then I’d freak out and wonder why I thought that-did I want to die deep down?!
It truly felt like a downward spiral that would never end; I thought I’d get to the bottom and completely fall apart. Every day was a chore. Pretending to be myself so I wouldn’t scare my friends and my boyfriend felt like holding up the planet. I felt guilty, worthless, hopeless, empty, and too fucked up to function. I didn’t miss my friends, my parents, my animals. What was wrong with me?!
I was so tired, so so tired of being me. I hated everything about myself. I would cry and want to scream into the careless, sleeping city while I walked aimlessly at 3am. I would wish I was anyone but me. I had no control over anything in my life, so I colored my hair “as dark as my mood”, as I liked to “joke”. Anything to be less like me. I’d look in the mirror and see a living dead girl, hollowed out and detached. I was living, but not really. I remember looking out my window thinking, “life has taught me how to find bittersweet beauty in darkness and loneliness”. That’s the kind of thinking you do when depression keeps you up till 6am.
Does it sound dramatic? A little too deep and disturbing? That’s depression.
Only it’s worse in your head. There are no words to accurately describe it. You feel insane. Detached. Lost. Pathetic. Weak. You feel like Pandora’s entire box of horrible things, plus more.
What’s truly devastating is that loved ones can’t do much to help. They feel like they need to walk on eggshells, they don’t know what to do, they don’t know if/when they can mention certain things, they’re exhausted from the mood swings, and they start to feel lost too. They’ll feel hopeless because they’re not enough to fix you. My boyfriend would’ve destroyed himself in order to fix me if he could have. My depression was damaging to our relationship and to all my relationships; I can’t imagine loving me and trying to help me through that. My loved ones are truly amazing for being there for me in those dark months without losing their sanity as well.
Never destroy yourself trying to save someone that you cannot save. Never destroy yourself by believing you can be the cure for depression. Simply be there and get someone the help they need. You have to live your life, too.
Even more, medication is not magic. You have to want to get better. You have to try, which is the hardest thing in the world. You have to hold on to the unfathomable belief that it will get better even though your mind sees no light at the end of the tunnel. You’ll have good days, and you’ll have bad days. And when it’s bad, it’s bad.
Tell me someone that chooses suicide over that seemingly lifelong torture is selfish. Especially when that someone doesn’t understand what’s happening to them. Someone that chooses death over what they believe is humiliating to their loved ones is not selfish. Wouldn’t you prefer death over losing your mind? Because that is what it feels like.
A person that survives a major depressive episode is not weak for being depressed in the first place, they’re the strongest people I know for pulling through hell on earth, for getting help and fighting tooth and nail to find themselves again.
Depression is genetic, biological, and social. It’s not a matter of weakness or strength.
A person that commits suicide does it to escape their torment. They truly feel they are doing everyone, including their loved ones, a favor. They’re not selfish, weak, or uncaring. Understand how unbalanced a brain has to be to think that way! Understand that a person without an illness or impairment cannot successfully take their own life. Try to imagine how hopeless you would have to be to even consider ending your own life. Try to imagine seeing no peace other than death.
I felt the way I did even though I grew up understanding depression. I felt that way even though I caught it and started medication early on. Imagine, just imagine, what it’s like for those that have no idea what’s happening to them. I don’t know how anyone could live through major depression without an understanding, without treatment, support, therapy, etc. I was fortunate enough to be educated on the illness, but it shouldn’t be that way! Everyone should be well educated on mental illnesses and how they really work. We should spread awareness, speak openly, and eliminate the stigma.
It’s so easy to mock “emo” people, “suicidal lunatics”, cutters, and those scary depressed people, but is nearly impossible to empathize with them and understand what they’re going through. Somehow it’s easier to claim a person ended their life just to get attention. Honestly, if you believe a person can take their life just for attention, you’re the crazy one.
How can people talk about it when they’ll be misunderstood and mocked? How can a potential suicidal school shooter make others aware of their instability in time to help them? How can anyone come out as part of the LGBTQ+ community without experiencing depression when they’re told they’re sinners and abominations, when they’re denied equal human rights?!How can people feel comfortable to speak up and reach out for help in today’s society?
There is no stereotypical depressed person; it can happen to anyone. I’m a white, American female that grew up with wonderful, caring, married parents and a large group of friends. I played sports, went on vacations, was well-fed, well-clothed, and I enjoyed life. Yes, I was diagnosed with a life-altering disability, but that doesn’t mean I’ll automatically live with depression. Your typical “emo” kid is not the poster boy for depression; people that you think live wonderful lives can and do deal with depression. Never ever tell someone their life is “too good” for them to be depressed. I have been told that before and I still don’t know exactly how to respond.
Maybe you’ll read this and think I’m a weak, suicidal lunatic with issues, that I’m a drama queen, that I had a “princess complex” and couldn’t handle the reality of life. If you do believe that, you’re entitled to your opinions, but you’re close-minded and sorely mistaken.
There’s so much more I could say, but this would never end and then nobody would read it. Truly, if just one person reads this and takes something from it, it’s worth it to me.
I have an over-the-top love for eyeshadow, and I’ve been working on my “collection” on and off for the past five years. My mom might hate my obsession, but she is to blame for starting me off with the Full Exposure palette in 8th grade. I also grew up infatuated with her Making Faces by Kevyn Aucoin.
I’m going to organize this from my first palette to my most recently purchased one. I’ll break each palette down into packaging, price and availability, color selection, shadow pigmentation and formulation, ingredients, and my personal review.
All swatches will be finger swatches on unprimed skin
All palette photos are linked to official sites if still available
Smashbox: Full Exposure
Packaging: This palette comes in a matte black, hard, thik cardboard case. The wording is a bit holographic but not in-your-face or obnoxious. The box itself is not prone to fingerprint marks and mine has not gotten dirty easily, especially for being so old. It is not a super bulky box, but it is also not the most slim and sleek. The packaging feels luxurious and sturdy.
It closes with a magnet instead of a latch. When you open the palette, you have a decent sized mirror, 14 decently large pans (7 x .035oz/1g), a double ended brush, and a .14oz/4g eyeshadow primer..
Price: This palette retails for $52.00.
With the most simple math, excluding the brush and primer prices, each shadow pan is roughly $3.71.
The full sized eyeshadow primer is $21.00, which makes the sample in the palette is roughly $6.00.
Majority of the Smashbox eyeshadow brushes are $24.00 alone, so we’ll say the dual-ended brush included in the palette is $20.00.
IF you want to consider those prices and subtract them from the palette price, the shadows are roughly $1.86 per pan.
Availability: This palette is permanent and available in 10+ stores including Sephora, Macy’s, Smashbox, Ulta Beauty, Jet.com, Nordstrom, Dillard’s, and more.
Color selection: This palette is a fairly neutral one that allows for both natural daytime looks and deeper, bolder, smokey looks. The shadows are not named and they include 7 matte shades and 7 shimmer shades.
1st row: shimmers
2nd row: mattes
Formulation and pigmentation: I find these shadows to be soft, smooth, and powdery. While they are soft shadows, there is not an intense amount of kickup when dipping the brush in. I do not experience much fallout with the shadows.
They do not feel creamy to the touch, but they don’t feel overly dry either; they have a sloght velvety feel. I’ve seen a lot of complaints that the pigmentation is lacking, especially with the shimmers and that the shimmers had horrible fallout. I don’t consider these shadows to be the most pigmented ones I’ve ever used, but I find they are great for beginners.
I feel that these shadows have an average longevity, but, that being said, I don’t feel like I’ve ever owned eyeshadow that completely vanished during the day.
Ingredients: Tnis palette is formulated without parabens and sulfates, but it does contain talc, mica, and bismuth oxychloride, which are all known to be irritants for some. I have very sensitive skin myself and I’ve never had any irritation when using these shadows.
Review: I was in love with this palette for so long, as you can tell. My palette is very used and abused.
I feel like I’ve seen a lot of mixed reviews and a lot more negative ones than positive ones, but I am a fan of this palette. It might be because it was my first high end palette, but I loved it and found it to be great for beginners, as I said. I actually really liked the brush and loved the primer.
The shadows were very easy to blend and created beautiful, natural looks. That being said, there are probably many other palettes out there that have similar colors and better payoff. I do still use the lighter shades ofern for brow and inner corner highlighting, but I’ve moved on for the most part.
This palette was purchased at Sephora and given to me by my mom.
Urban Decay: Naked 2
Packaging: I. Despise. This. Packaging. It is a thin, taupe colored, metal case that feels like an Altoids box. The wording is simple and brown, which I have no problem with. The case opens and closes with a hinge, but it does not open and close easily. In fact, mine took a tumble recently and no longer closes at all.
On the inside, there is a wide mirror, a dual sided brush, and 12 12 x .05oz/1.41g eyeshadow pans that include 3 matte shades, 8 shimmer shades, and 1 metallic shade. Price: This palette retails for $54.00.
Again, my math calculates only the roughest estimates. Each shadow is roughly $4.50.
Typically, Urban Decay eyeshadow brushes are around $24.00, so we’ll again say the brush included is worth $20.00.
With the brush price considered, the shadows are $2.80 per pan.
Availability: This palette is permanent and available from about 25 stores such as: Sephora, Macy’s, Ulta Beauty, Urban Decay, etc.
Color selection: This palette includes a nice range of light, natural, taupe, bronze, and deep shades and allows for multiple different looks. The shades are named by pan.
Formulation and pigmentation: The pigmentation is there, but my issue lies with the formulation. In my opinion, the Naked palettes are totally overhyped. The formulation of majority of these shades is so dry that they feel crusty; they are as far from creamy as possible. I can actually hear them scratching against my skin when I go to swatch them. I also find that their “blackest black” looses its darkness because it is so chalky. The smoothest and creamiest shadows in the palette are the darker shimmers, but they’re also a bit chunky and crumbly.
I experience a lot of fallout and blending difficulties with the Naked palettes, but I do find that the shadows are long-wearing.
Ingredients: The naked palettes contain parabens, talc, mica, and bismuth oxychloride. Oddly enough, these palettes have never irritated my skin.
Review: If you couldn’t tell, I’m not the biggest fan of Naked palettes. Their only positives are their pigmentation and color selection. This is petty, but I hate the packaging of Naked 2 and Naked 3, so there’s another negative. I also don’t love the skinny, rectangular pans. With that, the pan sizes include less product than other palettes and you’re paying more. They also contain only 12 shades while other, less expensive palettes have 14. I know I’m going against the majority, but I say skip this palette.
I purchased this palette at Sephora.
Urban Decay: Naked 3
Packaging: Like with the Naked 2, I despise this packaging, but I hate this one ever more because the top is bumpy and awkward. The case is pink, which is cute, and I’m a fan of the gold wording, but it looks wrong stamped onto bumps. Like the Naked 2, it has a mirror, a dual-sided brush, and 12 12x.05oz/1.41g pans. There are 3 mattes, 3 satins, 5 metallic shimmers, and 1 matte-satin.
Price & availability: exact same as Naked 2.
Color selection: This palette is full of cool mauves, pinks, and golds. With these shades, many different natural and bold looks can be created.
Formulation and pigmentation: I find the pigmentation in this palette to be softer than it is than the Naked 2, but still vibrant. This palette simply has a softer look to it.
This palette is also a bit of a desert: powdery and dry. The shimmers and metallics are the easiest to work with, especially Buzz and Liar. The metallics are the smoothest shades, but they’re about as buttery as other palettes’ dryest shades. There seems to be less fallout in this palette, but I’d still suggest finishing your eye makeup first with these.
Of all three Naked palettes I own, I’d say this one has the best formulation.
Ingredients: Again, same as Naked 2
Review: While I am not a Naked fan, Naked 3 is my favorite of the 3 I own. I find it to be the easiest to work with and the least dry. The shades are soft and feminine, easier to blend, and nicely pigmented. While they still have fallout, it seems less intense than the fallout in Naked 2. This is the only palette from the line that I’d recommend getting, but I feel that there are many other rose-toned palettes that are much more worth your money.
I purchased this palette at Sephora.
Urban Decay: Naked Smokey
Packaging: I actually love the packing on this palette. It has such a nice, luxurious, sleek feel to it that none of its predecessors had. This case has a more thick plastic feel instead of the cheap tin feeling with the others. It’s a cool-toned gray case with an almost marble design.
This palette is magnet-operated instead of hinge-operated, which I prefer. Again, there are 12 12x.05/1.41g pans that include 3 metallics, 3 shimmers, 2 satins, and 4 mattes.
Price and availability: The exact same as the last two palettes.
Color selection: This palette is exactly as it’s name says: smokey. The shades are very cool-toned, in the gray, blue, and light pink family. While the palette is designed for smokey looks, it is still easy to achieve a natural look with the pale pinks, browns, and golds.
Formulation and pigmentation: I repeat: these shadows are dy!!! Dry but pigmentated. Slanted has the best performance, but it’s crumbly like the other metallics.
Again, the formula is not impressive.
Ingredients: Exact same as the other Naked palettes.
Review: Like the others, this palette is full of dry shadows. People often say it’s their least favorite of the Naked palettes, but I’d attribute that to its cool color scheme. It is definitely not inferior to the Naked 2, it’s just average. My favorite thing about the palette is the brush that is included; the fluffy sideis wonderful for blending.
This palette was purchased at Sephora and given to me.
BH Cosmetics: Carli Bybel
Packaging: This packaging is adorable. It is an elegant white cardboard box with pretty silver writing and pearl designs. The cardboard does feel slightly cheap, but BH Cosmetics is not an overly expensive makeup brand. While discussing negatives, some might dislike that it’s white because it will show makeup spillage, but I find it pretty and unique.
The palette is magnetic and opens to show a large mirror, 10 shadow pans, and 4 highlighter pans that are all nameless. I can’t find the measurements for the pans, but the total palette is .99oz/28g. The shadow pan sizes are fairly small, which is another con of this palette. The circular shapes are cute, but more product could have fit.
Price: This palette is only $14.50!
Again, with very rough estimates, the shadows are $.52 each and the highlighters are about $2.30 each.
Availability: Unfortunately, this palette is limited edition. Carli Bybel is a YouTube beauty guru that created this palette with BH Cosmetics. Usually collaborations are not permanent. On April 3rd, she released a deluxe version of the palette for pre-order so her original is becoming unavailable. I believe you can still purchase the original from Ulta Beauty, but it will probably be gone soon.
Color Selection: The colors in this palette are stunning; the palette is full of neutrals and mauves that help achieve beautiful natural looks with more than just browns.
3rd row: highlighters
Formulation and pigmentation: These shadows are the absolute creamiest, most buttery shadows I’ve ever touched. Ever. Majority of them are nicely pigmented, however, I was convinced I recieved a dud at first because some of my shades were not as pigmented as I’d expected. After playing around with it more, I’ve realized it’s nicely pigmented except my brown-mauve shade in the first row. I’m thinking these are shadows that might seem disappointing if the right brushes aren’t being used.
I’ve read very few reviews that say the shadows aren’t highly pigmented, so I believe my 3rd shadow is just a dud.
The kickup isn’t insane unless you really swirl your brush around, and I have not noticed intense fallout.
I prefer to use the highlighters as eyeshadows simply because I’m not a fan of shimmery highlighters. They’re still gorgeous colors.
Ingredients: This palette is vegan/cruelty free, paraben free and totally irritant-free unless mica irritates your skin. I’ve experienced absolutely no irritation from these shadows.
Review: I find this palette to be incredible, especially for the price. It is such better quality than majority of my high end palettes and it is so much cheaper. I’m truly blown away. It’s adorable, I love the color selection, the formula is wonderful, and the price is unbelievable. I’d suggest this over any of the ahove palettes, which is why I linked the deluxe version. I’d hate for anyone to miss out.
I purchased this palette online from Ulta Beauty
Morphe: 35 color Taupe (35t)
Packaging: Morphe palette packaging is nothing phenomenal, but it is compact and not at all bulky. It also feels fairly durable since it’s a hard plastic. It holds 35 1in. pans, so it is not the smallest palette out there either.
Price: The Morphe 35 color palettes retail for $22.99, making the shadows around $.65 each.
Availability: These palettes are not the easiest to find in store, but you can purchase this online at Morphebrushes.com or from second-hand sellers.
Color selection: Absolutely beautiful, stunning, and unique. This palette contains rosy-tones, taupes, purples, golds, and bronzes in a combination of finishes, mostly matte and shimmer.
Formulation and pigmentation: In my opinion, Morphe quality is impressive, especially for the price. The shadows are pretty buttery-not Carli Bybel quality but worlds above Naked palettes. The mattes and satins are high quality, but the shimmers and metallics are so creamy and easy to work with. I find them all to be very pigmented and very long-wearing.
The Morphe Brushes brand does receive some criticism. Some people don’t think they’re very good quality at all, some think they pay influencers to overly hype their products, and there is a fair amount of speculation over the possibility of private labeling. If you would like to look into it more for yourself, Stephanie Nicole , a very knowledgeable Youtuber that works in beauty product manufacturing, dedicated an entire video to Morphe. Ingredients: This palette contains mica and talc.
Review: I personally am a fan of this brand’s quality, price, and vast color selection. I find that the blendability is extraordinary in this palette, which is made even more impressive by the fact that they are so pigmented. I’m also super impressed by the staying power of these shadows.
The smell of this palette is slightly unpleasant and chemical-like, but it’s not overpowering.; the smell is not make-it or break-it for me. I will say that these shadows sit slightly less comfortably than my others, but I’ve yet to feel true irritation from them. I purchased this online from Morphe Brushes using the affiliate code from Kathleen Lights.
Kathleen Lights is yet another Youtuber and beauty guru. She is a Morphe affiliate and came out with a limited edition palette with Morphe, which might make some people believe she is biased, but I feel that she is one of the most honest and genuine gurus out there.
Packaging: I’m really not impressed with the packaging of this palette. The cardboard feels very thin and cheap, the color is blah to me, and it gets dirty easily. However, it did come with a very nice eye primer and a large mirror.
The pan size is not specified, bur they appear to be very large. The total weight is .39oz/11.20g and the primer is .19oz/5.5g. The 10 shadow pans include 5 mattes and 5 shimmers.
Price: This palette retails for $42.00, which means the shadows are around $4.20 each without the primer included. With the primer($6), the shadows are about $3.60.
Availability: This palette is permanent and available from 10+ stores like Ulta Beauty, Lorac Cosmetics, Kohl’s, Nordstrom, etc.
Color selection: Be still my heart. I am so madly in love with the beautiful rose gold color scheme. Nothing else needs to be said, just look at it.
Formulation and pigmentation: Out of this world. I seriously don’t need to go into detail because both pigmentation and formulation are phenomenal. They’re buttery, soft, blendable, highly pigmented, and they have a minimal amount of fallout. They do have some kickup but it’s simply because they’re soft shadows. Ingredients: This palette is formulated with mica.
Review: This is my absolute favorite palette that I own. The colors are gorgeous, the shadows are buttery and blend out so well, I don’t experience irritation, and I can create such beautiful looks. I can’t think of a single complaint about the shadows themselves, The only negatives are the packaging and the price.
I purchased this online from Amazon.
Tarte: Tartelette In Bloom
Packaging: This palette probably has my favorite packaging of all my palettes. It’s a hard plastic and metal case that opens on a hinge. The design on the top is so pretty, and the gold makes it look luxurious. It’s nice and compact and includes a very large mirror.
There are 12 12x.053oz pans: 3 shimmer shades and 9 matte shades.
Price: This palette retails for $46.00.
Each pan is roughly $3.80.
Availability: This palette is permanent and available at Tarte Cosmetics, Sephora, Macy’s, Ulta Beauty, and more.
Color selection: This palette is full of mostly warm, light neutral shades, but 3 deep shades are included as well.
Formulation and pigmentation: While the formula is on the drier side, it feels less like a desert than the Naked palettes. The shadows are blendable and easy to work with, espcially since they’re lighter shads. The formulation ranks average for me, but the pigmentation is above average.
The shadows don’t have the worst fallout ever, but I’d suggest tapping the brush off before applying to your lid.
Ingredients: These shadows contain mica, talc, and bismuth oxychloride. I’m not sure if it’s from a combination of those 3 or if it’s the scented aspect, but these shadows are slightly irritating to my lids.
Review: I thought I was disappointed with this palette at first, but then I realized I was reaching for it daily. I really like the natural warm shades, as I find them to be so perfect for spring and summer. I love the shimmer shades for the entire lid or just the center of the lid. I absolutely love the color selection and the vanilla powder scent.
My only drawbacks are the unimpressive formulas and the slight irritation.